Most of this month, I have felt like Cloud at the end of disc 1 of FFVII. If you have ever played that game, you would know that is not a good thing. But Now I'm feeling better both physically and mentally. I'm still not too happy, but I'm doing better now.

But during this incident, I have made many new friends and have heard from a friend that I haven't heard from in five years.

This dog has lived with us for a week now. She's a Shiba Inu mix. I posted a picture on a dog forum, and someone thinks that she is a Shiba and Chihuahua mix.

She sleeps on my bed with me and lays next to me when I play video games, just like how Rinoa used to.

Yesterday morning, Rinoa was having trouble breathing. Me and my dad were taking her to the emergency vet. On the way there, she passed away in my arms. I miss her so much. She was a very good dog. My mom said that she never saw a dog that loved someone so much. Rinoa would follow me all over the house, and she would stay in my room all night when I was asleep. She would start howling whenever me and my dad left the house, even if it was just for a few minutes. But she never howled if just my dad left. She would lay on my bed with me while I played video games. And she would often just sit and stare at me.

She was diagnosed with congestive heart failure the last time we took her to the vets, and the vet we saw yesterday morning said that is what caused her to die.

My dad buried her in the backyard, and I cleared off a shelf to put some things that have to do with Rinoa on it. I have two pictures of her, her collar, some of her hair (my mom also put some of the hair in a medicine bag for me), the paw print on some clay that was made at the vet's yesterday morning, and a figure of Rinoa from FFVIII, the character I named her after.

Tsukiyo (I still talk to her, but she doesn't post on DA anymore, but on some other sites we're both on) said that she is going to draw a picture of Rinoa and Hsiao-Chai for me. I want to put that on the shelf as well. Also, she said this: "My October began from sad news...1st,i heard fire had destroyed many Pili puppets...2nd,I knew my friend's dear puppy had gone to heaven...but everything has an end! I believe happy events happen in wave very soon!"

I've had the song "Eyes On Me" going through my head a lot yesterday. It's a song from FFVIII. Here's a video. The girl in the video is Rinoa, the character my dog was named after: www.youtube.com/watch

I don't think I've ever cried this much in my entire life. I'm doing better today, but my eyes are still puffy and red, and a bit uncomfortable.

Here is a picture of my Rinoa doggie. I miss her so much.

A few hours ago, I saw that KattyMouse's DeviantArt account was deactivated. Luckily, she gave me her phone number the first time I went to her house, so I called her and asked her why she deactivated it. It turns out that she didn't do it at all. Someone else got on her account and deactivated it. I have no idea why anyone would want to do that. I don't think she has any enemies. She made a new account, but hasn't posted anything in it yet. I told her to use a password that is letters and numbers mixed together and no actual words. That is what I do for all of my passwords. Hopefully this doesn't happen again.

In other news, I found this awesome video of Tun-Fo. I think it's the best one I've ever seen. Even my parents were very impressed with it. And because of that video, I made two drawings of Tun-Fo in a row. I played the video over and over again so I could listen to the music while drawing. Well, here is the video:

It's been a while since I last posted anything here. Mostly because there's only like two people here who probably look at this.

So last month, I got to meet a friend in real life who I first met on DeviantArt. Her name on there is KattyMouse. She's so much like me it's kind of scary. She is also around the same age as me. She lives two and a half hours away from me. When me and my dad first went to her house, I gave her two extra posters that I had. She was really happy about it. I brought a DVD for us to watch with battle scenes from Pili, but we didn't get to finish it.

The next time we met, she spent the night at my house. She thought my room was just amazing, and she hugged my chibi Hsiao-Chai doll and kept staring at the Su Huan-Jen puppet. In the morning, we watched a lot of weird videos on YouTube.

Then my dad decided to take us to the Georgia Aquarium, and she spent two nights at my house. She played Okami on my PS2 and we watched some more funny videos on the computer. She drew some stuff as well, but I don't think she's finished any of the drawings yet.

On October 16th, I'll be able to spend the night at her house. It would have been around October 2nd, but her dad has to go out of town for a little while.